This post is about my Dark Universe CD, the story behind the music. A very personal story, yearning for release for most of my life. I don’t expect all to understand, but this is who I am, and this is my life.
I am Transgender/Intersex. ***
There it is. It’s out there. I have been this way as long as I can remember. I have lived with a deep melancholy sadness for all of this time. It has burned inside of me. I have tried to hide, created a protective shell, denied myself happiness, and channeled that emotion and pain into my music.
I was left feeling worthless, looking for an escape from this world, a better place. My dark place, my Dark Universe.
That is the crux of my story.
I assumed it was maybe God’s (or some other supreme spiritual beings) way of giving with one hand and taking with another.
Sometimes love is not enough and despite the deep love of family and friends, I could not overcome the feelings of sadness and isolation.
I did my best to be a caring, loving, giving person and had some wins and losses. The main loss being my true self.
As you listen to the music and follow the lyrics of Dark Universe you will see many clues as to my feelings, although I did write the songs with the intention of making them open to the listeners interpretation. If you read between the lines, you may see it, or you may find something else entirely.
My aim was to channel the emotions that we all feel about our lives into something that evoked an emotional response. Music and art are about emotion in my view, and you will see that there is a purpose to what is being played and sung.
This music is from the very darkest, deepest depths of my being. I am putting all my vulnerabilities on display. The one element I would like to be felt is hope. Dark as it may be in parts, there is a ray of hope in all I write, finding beauty in the sadness, and a chance to resolve, of light in every darkness.
And now, it is my chance to find that light, to reveal who I am, to both myself and the world. My music is my love and escape, but hopefully the ultimate path to truth and happiness.
I sincerely hope you find something to love on Dark Universe, and that you can also find a place for me in your hearts and take me for who I am.
Love and peace
Jaime Page – February 2016
I have total support from my lovely wife & partner Kerry, my Mum and Dad, which is priceless, and overwhelming support from my close friends, family, many bandmates past and present, and all at Kosmic.
The future will involve advocating for others that are dealing with similar issues, working towards greater awareness and acceptance of Diversity/LGBTI issues. I salute PFLAG Perth for their excellent work in this area and also hope to add my voice to their message.
*** A More Detailed Blog Coming Soon.